Okay, so I just said "fuck it" and decided to finally make a graphic post. I wanted to finish a few more icons but, at the rate things are going, I doubt I'll be in the mood for it any time soon. Well but then again my moods swing at the blink of an eye... I could add a few things more, like how it's my first attempt making icons of hide or about the journal's new layout, but honestly I feel like crap right now, for more than one reason, so I'll save your eyes from any more ranting. Anyway, enjoy~

Total: 18 icons
Kaoru&Toshiya: 9 icons
Matsumoto Hideto: 9 icons

Total: 5 banners
Niikura Kaoru: 2 banners
Hara Toshimasa: 1 banner
Dir en grey (group): 1 banner
Kaoru&Toshiya: 1 banner

Total: 3 wallpapers
Niikura Kaoru: 1 wallpaper
Hara Toshimasa: 1 wallpaper
Dir en grey (group): 1 wallpaper


( I am the sexy cut everyone wants to follow! )


♦comments are the love that keeps me alive
♦credits if using, please, I worked hard on these
♦feel free to add my journal for future updates
♦for more graphics, visit dirugasm
♦don't edit or claim them as yours or I'll gut you with a cleaver

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Even poison tastes like cherry on your lips
Drop after drop, I fall asleep
Hey, king of illusion,
Can I love you?

Sing me a song, I want to wake up
In the blood red fairy tale,
I drown in the sweetest tears
One by one, it multiplies
Don’t leave, don’t go, don’t leave me…
No one can love you like I do
Curse of my blessing

Can’t you see you’re hurting me?
Push the knife in deeper, only our disgrace is meant to be
Hey, lord of distress,
Can I love you?

Are you done using me yet?
Each hole in my soul makes you harder to forget…
Hey, god of my misery,
Can I love you?

Sing me a song, I want to wake up
In the blood red fairy tale,
I drown in the sweetest tears
One by one, it multiplies
Don’t leave, don’t go, don’t leave me…
No one can love you like I do
Curse of my blessing

Count to ten, a smile on my face
(no one can love you like I do)
I want to believe in your alluring embrace
(no one will love you like I do)
Break me to pieces, without a trace
(no one can love you like I do)
Why can’t you see your heart is my place?
(no one will love you like I do)

Ah…

Finally, the graphics batch! Jesus, it surely took me my time... Stuff to do, roleplays, fanfics, mood swings.. blame it on all that. Hopefully the next update won't take another couple of months though, then again, I'm a paranoid perfectionist and would rather take forever than present any crappy entries.

Enough of rambling and onto the summary:

Total: 45 icons
Anime (Elfen Lied): 5 icons
Final Fantasy/ Kingdom Hearts: 10 icons
Kaoru&Dai: 5 icons
Kaoru&Kyo: 5 icons
Kaoru&Shinya: 5 icons
Kaoru&Toshiya: 5 icons
Kaoru: 5 icons
Kyo: 5 icons

Total: 1 banner
Kaoru: 1 banner

Total: 2 wallpapers
Kaoru: 2 wallpapers

( fake cut is fake... )


♦comments are the love that keeps me alive
♦credits if using, please, I worked hard on these
♦feel free to add my journal for future updates
♦for more graphics, visit dirugasm
♦don't edit or claim them as yours or I'll gut you with a cleaver

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Title: Mode of Adam
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Toshiya/Kaoru, Kaoru/Toshiya
Word count: 1,490
Warnings: phone sex and Visu outfits abuse
Disclaimer: I don't own them, just my dirty mind...
Summary: Toshiya and Kaoru have finally admitted they're madly in love. Toshi needs to leave for some days, so the only way for them to not miss each other as much is...a cell phone.



( Then I’ll claim your lap once I’m back. )

Title: Spilled Milk
Rating: NC-17
Pairings: Toshiya/Kaoru, Kaoru/Kyo and Toshiya/Kaoru/Kyo, implied Toshiya/Kyo
Word count: 1,455
Warnings: masturbation over a desk and stained glasses
Disclaimer: I don't own them...*sniffles*
Summary: Once upon a time there was a guitarist freaking out in his room while a bassist and a vocalist fought in another one.


( What took you so damn long? We’re all starving here! )

And I could start ranting, complaining about how much of a hecatomb has befallen my life in the past weeks, but since no one is interested and I don't want to nag the poor souls who visit my journal, I'll be a good duck and skip it.

.......don't ask from where did the duck remark come from >_>;

Though this is actually the reason for the lack of updates lately, but I'm already plotting a graphics batch to make up for it. In the meanwhile, I thought of sharing a few pictures that make me awe every time I look at them... and I'm not obsessed either, I swear!

The quality may not be the best for a couple of them but....... Kaoru is quality himself, right? Enjoy~


( love to the smile )